Tuesday, 3 December 2013

To Jay

Wow! It's amazing how time flies. It's been nine years since you left us and it still feels like yesterday. I guess it's because I remember too many things and feel all the emotions like they just happened. I woke up this morning with thoughts and visions of you, wondering what you could be doing right now and the number of new friends and angels you would be chatting with now.
You were always the man of the people; who loved to put smiles on faces, especially mine.

I also wondered what and who you would expect me to be now. I wondered if I have done justice to at least a huge portion of all the plans we had together.
Before I got out of bed I wanted to make sure that wherever you are, there would still be a smile on your face when you see how far I have gone. I nodded my head, smiled and got up because I knew that God heard us those nights we held hands and prayed together, asking for his help in accomplishing what we set out to do, especially in the lives of our children Isabel and Angelica. He has done great things in our lives and has continued to be there for us.

Jaiye, your girls miss you so much and I have made sure that whenever they hear any of your songs, they know it's you because that voice has remained in their hearts. Isabel still tells me how she knows that her shoe size came from you and Angelica insists that her height has nothing to do with me but owes it to you. Above all they know and will always know what a wonderful and loving father you were. Nothing will ever change that no matter what.
As I always say "time does not heal wounds, it only makes the load and pain lighter. Only God can heal wounds".

Today I am writing this letter to you and I am not crying, instead I am smiling because in my heart I know you are in the best place ever, where your laughter will resonate.
I miss you so much my love and I know that when the time comes I will see you again.

Okay, let me go and face the world now. You are so lucky because you no longer have to deal with all the hate, gossip, backbiting, deception, oppression, sickness, war, accidents, disasters, robbery and all the other things the rest of us have to deal with.

Rest in the arms of The Lord JAY.

Let me go and continue with all the negativity the world brings. My happiness is that I am not going alone, my God is with me all the way.

Rest in peace.


  1. Wahooo may his soul rest in peace. .
    Am very sure that he loves you more than anything. .

  2. May he continue to rest in the bosom of the lord

  3. May God comfort you and your family. God bless you.

  4. Oh Stella, God is all you are not and all you lack, in other words, you lack nothing because you have him. Your husband is in God's arms. (The best place ever!) Let Emmanuel never leave your lips because God is with us (...you). http://frediliadtruthuncensored.com/


  6. stella, you are one in million i have been through that road and i know how you feel rightnow. Those memories will live in your heart forever you just have to be strong for your girls...and bring them up in the right way.God is your help.

    Helen from Liberia

  7. May his soul continues to rest. Stella ur beauty and strength shall continue to keep u. God bless

  8. May his soul rest in peace......Stella I soo love u and am so happy you have moved on with your life, God knows best....

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